There's a reason why 2 people stay together: they give each other something nobody else can

2 weeks So this is how it feels being a mother I still remember the day we brought Hannan home for the first time I was so worried,my heart was beating fast all the way back Can I do this? Can I be a good mom? So many questions wondering in my mind at that time Because both hubby and I were pampered when we were at the hosp We only came to see Hannan during feeding time While other things like changing the nappies,bath yadayadayada were taken care by the nurses But Hannan makes it all easy for me As if she totally understand my anxiety And I also noticed that I'm more composed and relax I don't get panic when she cries or when she pooped or when she needs to bathe (When I thought I would) It's like a two-way communication;we both understand each other The only time that I got panic was when she fell sick And when some people say that parenthood is about having sleepless nights I don't view it that way at all Or ra...

Hannan got discharged last Tuesday Her reading on Tuesday morning dropped tremendously from 291 to 186, whereby Dr. Sharmila gave us permission to bring her back home We were so glad of her improvement But the next day she still seems a bit yellowish So I'm bf her every 2-3 hours hoping that she'll recover Friends and families said that jaundice usually takes 1 week to recover So I'm really hanging on that..

Sayang, Ummi and daddy have songs dedicated specially for you..

This morning Hannan was admitted to NICU. Again. Really feel bad for her. Really feel like I didn't treat her good enough. Poor baby.. Sorry Hannan, Ummi didn't know.. We are actually thankful to Iwan who noticed Hannan's conditions during hubby's friends' "surprise visit" yesterday. We were so confident of Hannan's health and condition at home that we totally forget about it. That the jaundice might come back. Because we were totally overwhelmed by her presence at home. By her cry. By her smile. And the way she behaved. She's such an angel. We totally forget about the jaundice. After Iwan and the rest left, I tried to bf her but she appeared weak. and was so deep in sleep. I cried to hubby. I panicked. We quickly called PCMC and went there straight away. I wept hearing her cried to her lungs when the nurses took her blood sample yesterday. Twice. The reading was 248. The M/O said he had discussed with Dr. Sharmila and Hannan need not be adm...

I didn’t get to hold Hannan on the first day she was born.. attached to the hospital bed in my room, i was put on drip and urine catheter and not able to move at all.. seeing Hannan’s pics in hubby’s blackberry made me so emotional.. cried so many times.. especially when I saw the video of her drinking formula.. I felt so guilty of not being able to feed her.. I only got to see her on the second day,noon.. after they removed my drip and catheter hubby pushed me on the wheelchair to the NICU and I almost cried upon seeing her (guess it’s true that they said ibu-ibu lepas bersalin ni byk hormone).. I was asked to breastfeed her.. .. felt stressed because the head nurse was watching me and everything I did seemed to be wrong.. Late Tuesday evening the lactation consultant came to give explanation and how to on bf and I cried upon unsuccessful attempts. The lactation consultant then invited hubby and I to the lactation class on Wednesday morning and I was really glad...

  it was all worth it..

Sunday,Sept 11 Woke up at 6.30am.solat.kejut hubby yg kepenatan dan mengantuk sbb tdo pkl 5 pagi entertaining his friends tgk game Man U lwn Bolton   but seeing his face tak sampai hati nk kejut byk kali. so I just watched him sleep.around 7.15am,turun bwh.mesin kain.today supposedly nk pergi jemputan rumah Pn Rosni at Shah Alam,but my Rembau family is coming so I decided to cook altho still feeling tired from yesterday.kemas dapur sikit2 n headed to the living area utk rehat sekejap before start cooking. 8 am,was on my knee to switch on the tv plug when a gush of water came out. seluar basah. confused. x rasa sakit. normal discharge or “the show”? but it was clear liquid. shud i concern or ignore? called mama, mama kata better pegi check takut air ketuban. then I called Prince Court , told them that I'm 35 wks preggy and I think my water broke. They asked to come immediately to the emergency unit. I explained to them that I was not sure whether it's really “the show” bec...

Extract from my old emails .. Bertanyalah kepada mereka (yang musyrik itu): "Siapakah yang memberi rezeki kepada kamu dari langit dan bumi? Atau siapakah yang menguasai pendengaran dan penglihatan? Dan siapakah yang mengeluarkan makhluk yang hidup dari benda yang mati, dan mengeluarkan benda yang mati dari makhluk yang hidup? Dan siapakah pula yang mentadbirkan urusan sekalian alam?" (Dengan pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu) maka mereka (yang musyrik) tetap akan menjawab (mengakui) dengan berkata: "Allah jualah yang menguasai segala-galanya!" Oleh itu, katakanlah: "(Jika kamu mengakui yang demikian), maka mengapa kamu tidak mahu bertaqwa?" (Yunus: 31) Agar keikhlasan itu dapat dirasa, datanglah segala musibah untuk berbicara, dalam bentuk yang di luar bayangan dan jangkaan kita. Kerana kita manusia yang lupa, bahawa kita semua adalah hamba. Status yang menjadikan kita sentiasa layak untuk diuji, dan diperlakukan apa sahaja oleh Pemilik kita (dengan selautan hikma...

finally managed to upload the pics! the bday gal baru lps nangis ni hubby's - lamb shank.sedap katanya mine. mushroom bruschetta

Glucose test for me (yeay?) this morning so i had to fast since 12 am yesterday The nurse took my blood before giving me the "special drink" had to wait another 2 hours after drinking for another blood test  can u see through the feelings of "enough of glucose already!"  I was really hungry and drinking that glucose thing was not soothing at all Poor hubby I was a complete whiner after drinking the thing and he was not a good accomplice I persuaded him to give me just a lil bit of plain water after the glucose test but he was so firm that i had to completely ignore him and used his laptop :p 12.30 pm we went in to see Dr. Seri So friendly and bubbly as before, chit chatting about raya and everything, she explained to us that my bp, hb count, glucose level and etc are all ok then the scanning part Hannan was still covering her face with her hands and legs although Dr Seri asked me to turn my body for different angle of scanning her face can't...

MIL was saying that other day that we never throw up party for Nana, whereas she was the one who always do the planning and setting up surprises/parties for other family members so this year we thought of doing something like she always did Venue: San Fran Pizza Bangi  was chosen since Nana was asking about the place and the food. there were other options like Italiannies but because we were not sure of the "halal status" so we have to leave that out. Party hats, masks,etc: Cold Storage Alamanda Bday present: Parkson Alamanda. Specially hand picked by hubby. The plan: Buat tak tau about Nana's bday and everyone's got their own plan. Hubby and I: open house. FIL, MIL and Sab - need to go to PJ to pick up things. I have to say that the greatest actors were FIL and Sabrina hehe. Our biggest worry was Nana's hubby because it was impossible to talk to him without Nana on his side. The day: Everything worked according to plan except for the "slight...

Raya eve: hanya pertolongan minimum dihulurkan di dapur al-maklumlah, i can't even duduk bersila lama2 kat dapur tu so i just watched my sisters and granma preparing the sambal goreng kalau tak, i would surely be the "mangsa keadaan" because  i was always the one helping in the kitchen especially the potong2 bahan part but this year, mom and my 2 lil sis were the anchor women in the kitchen lauk siap awal lagi untuk our last buka puasa that day alhamdulillah Raya morning: hubby siap-siap utk solat raya with granma, nyang and my brothers.. while mama and I and other sisters menjamah preparing juadah for them after makan2, mcm biasa acara salam-salam and as usual, mom is the "pelakon air mata" mind the "cover up" of my 2 lil sis. the one in the centre is great granma. on her right is granma. the rest boleh teka sendiri :) Petang raya: since my in-laws (and only three of them with lil SIL as Nana beraya at Terengganu) are celebrati...