There's a reason why 2 people stay together: they give each other something nobody else can

Hello mid march 2015 I've told mr.husband that it's going to be a heavy 1st quarter of 2015. Indeed it is. Piles of files on my desks. When we thought it's ending suddenly so many other things came up. As crazy as it sounds, I never complain about my workload. I never see them as burden. It's the responsibility and the trust that actually weigh me down.  All i need is just some understanding from people who have interest on those piling files that I'm just a human.A break from work is very limited. I spend less time with family. And sometimes in fulfilling my role in the house I also need to constantly remind my family that I'm just a normal person. That sometimes i need some break too. It's very hard carrying so much expectations. That you must be have flawless skin, slim and fit body, stay pretty all the time being a mum of 2 who are now in their active phases while at the same time manage the house, breastfeed, play with kids, show your love to ...

my ex boss is always the relax type kinda guy he was regularly late to the office then lunch he'll rush back to fetch his kids and he'll usually back on the dot in the evening I always thought that he was not taking his job seriously and I thought he was behaving that way because he depended so much on me but now I have to say that I am now, becoming him now I understand that when you have kids, your entire world just change your top priority is no longer your job it's always your child. your family

Yes, to  men Do you want to know how to make your women beautiful? Super duper easy. LOVE them. SHOW them that you love them. Make them FEEEEEEL the love with that, they will feel good inside their skin will just glow the whole day They'll be calm, relaxed They can make better decisions in the morning rush hour i.e they wont nag you about what dress to wear in the morning or whether the tudung or skirt matches etc etc they'll feel motivated to go and to do work Thus increasing productivity Without even realising, you are contributing to a better Malaysia ;)

There are just some days that you can't do your work the whole day just because your mind is too distracted by something else Today is one of those days (Habis amanahku hari ini) Forgive me dear Allah Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device via Vodafone-Celcom Mobile.

blog, I miss u!! there were so many things that need to be done, so many things i needed to work on, so many things that need to be thought carefully and now i just have to curik2 time just before i go to meeting (meeting bloody meeting) like I'm addicted to blog or something okay, now, baby princess finally got her first tooth!! it's on the front, bawah.. no wonder she's been cranky and once down with fever.. poor baby, nak tumbuh gigi rupanya and starting to test the function of her tooth to..well, naturally, ummi's boobs and loves fried rice!! boy..baru tumbuh gigi dah nk makan nasi goreng dah!! but we had to be careful giving her new version of solid foods..sikit2 just to give her the taste.. and try to avoid food with artificial flavour MSG etc as much as we can.. and.. currently hubby is away in sabah and sarawak for work 5 weeks! but he managed to dig his piggy bank and bought ticket back this weekend and for ummi and baby princess to fly there...

assalamualaikum hope it's not too late to wish you all a very happy raya and hope you had a great one with your loved ones The true raya was actually  on the first Syawal okay?but keep the sunnah going with visits and organising feasts as sadaqah and etc for us, it was extra special with our special Hannan Hubs got me a bigger handbag just for the sake of keeping Hannan's angpaus (yup. collection was quite remarkable. oh and tq anyway dear for the handbag!) our baju raya was from from the same "kayu" or "sepapan". meaning, the exact same material.like boria. like singaporeans usually have in the old days. sadly, my baju raya was a total damage thanks to the last minute choice of tailor (hint: Bangi area). never going there again. ever. our first raya was in jb, second raya in muar, third raya in seremban. quite a marathon. poor baby she was trying to understand all the commotion and travel and exhausted from all of that. lucky she had her little aun...

finally the interview was over yesterday and basically no mood for today as questions and "should have been answers" are still lingering in my mind "why overseas?there are lots of similar courses offered here" "how would you contribute to the government by doing this course?" "what type of exposure are you looking into when the courses offered are only 9-12 months term?" "what's the difference between 1997-98 financial crisis with current euro crisis and why isn't malaysia affected as much as during the 1997-98 crisis?" "what do you plan to do on your dissertation?" still thinking whether my answers were well received by the panels still thinking "arghh..i should have said it this way or that way..it would've sound more concrete bla bla bla.." the panels seem to be more interested with the guy next to me..i think they spent 40 minutes questioning and debating on his research paper alone.. ...

this guy has always been negative to me i really don't understand what is his problem with me and as far as i remember, when there's need, i always ask him politely i seldom talk to him for the fact that he has always, always being sarcastic for questions or statements which were originally meant good or kind and i don't see him that way with other people   source: mr google "Those who spend (freely), whether in prosperity, or in adversity; who restrain anger, and pardon (all) men;- for Allah loves those who do good" Al-Imran:134

Here I am Eating bijoux carrot slice as early as 5 am in the morning while expressing -__- I had to eat it because no one else would (Can u believe that?) Woke up at 3.30am,golek2 sleepy,but thinking that I need to rush to KL for a 8.30am meeting, my veins just popped out,denying my eyes to just shut themselves Hannan and daddy are so peace in sleep (jealous)

Can't believe it's already my 2nd week back at work So far alhamdulillah Hannan is coping very well with her new schedule and her bottles Basically I would express in the morning and feed her before going to work (Already been late few days now) Then come back home to express and feed her and hv lunch (Which means I've been going out early for lunch and back late to the office) And back at home around 6pm can't believe that she drinks almost 12oz when I'm at work Anyway Alhamdulillah that I have my mom to take care of her while I'm at work I was talking with one of the directors this morning and he said I'm so lucky to have my mom and parents-in-law to take care of Hannan That means I should worry less I guess that's true that I totally forgot about it She's been developing well Last check-up she weighs at 5.3kg And you could see her body already getting ketak2 hehe But I still miss her at the office! If only I could bring her alon...

So yesterday was hard Mama said at first Hannan didn't want to drink from the bottle She made this cebik2 sad face and cried a lil bit here n there I guess she was searching for me :( I missed her too Badly.every second Kept looking at her pics at the office When I came back at lunch hour She cried to me as if mengadu or asking "why weren't you here?" *Hati jatuh berkeping-keping* I miss u too baby.. Be strong with ummi ya?

Finally 1st day back at work So sad of leaving my lil' sweetie at home.. :(

Can't sleep! Whenever I close my eyes I kept imagining myself being in an interview session at nestle Ni semua gara-gara SBPA which was announced few days ago I haven't read the details yet but my head keeps lingering on the thoughts about the exit policy for civil servants What's with nestle? Well because I was sooooo close to getting a job at nestle before Should I update my resume?? Urghh!!

Reporting from room 908, Concorde Shah Alam while listening to the most beautiful tone from the Shah Alam Mosque..the Fajr Prayer.. having a lab session today until pm.. it's actually a 3 day session, so that's why the lab secretariat is so considerate providing us rooms and save us from all those hassle of travelling all the way from putrajaya..thank you organiser.. hubby is still sleeping safe and sound..poor hubby, down with flu since yesterday.. and it's so hard to pursuade him to go to the clinic.. so many excuses.. "takpe lah, beli ubat je.." or "malas" etc..etc.. if it is me, mesti dah kena bebel dah..hmmm.. already 29 weeks..can't help but notice my belly growing much bigger..and heavier..so this is how all mothers feel..carrying their baby ke sana ke mari..I'm sure Hannan weighs more than 1kg already..and my snacking habits came back since the last two days..keep feeling hungry every one hour..huuu..really really hope I can fast fo...

there are many types of bosses... I'm thankful that my boss is such a wonderful one Never raised his voice Never got panick Very understanding on situations like: "boss, I'll be in a bit late because..." or "boss,i need to take emergency leave today because..." or "boss, can we go this meeting together because.." or "boss, can i apply for leave tomorrow?" :) and his answer is always a positive one :) really cool kinda guy sometimes i felt i was more panick than he was in some situations like meeting datelines or when he wants some detailed explanation on something or when we are supposed to go to top level meeting etc etc he really kept his composure i really wonder where did he get that kind of strength and when your boss and your boss's boss praises you you really feel appreciated and that's the way i feel today although the boss's boss can totally turn the other way round let me just remember today...

tired. hungry. started this morning with breakfast session with hubby and straight away to meeting blah..blah..questions..answers..went back to office at 11.30.. went to see the 2nd important man in the dept..explain here and there..then came down again to draft input for a paper and i only managed to complete the 2 pages input and send it to him at 5 o'clock well of course, there were intervals here and there like listening to a friend's problem or resolving some issues with my subordinate rest..eat..drink..restroom..answering calls..and now it's already 6.05pm and i have another different write up to do (sigh again) lately i think i have lost half of energy that i had as compared to 1st-2nd year period i first joined the service dunno whether it's because of the pregnancy or i need to do something else and i also constantly feel hungry and it's really bugging me that hubby is starting to cut down his food consumption and skips dinner because he claime...

 pic source: google  congrats to dear hubby who reported for duty to P*M***U yesterday! he managed to place himself among other few high flyers in this high esteem agency after serving so many years in his previous ministry. i was so excited about his first day that i kept bugging him with so many bbms and questions and etc..etc.. and boy, he was so tired when he got back due to so many travel he had to made on his first day and he was a bit down because he felt he had so many things that he needs to catch up don't worry dear, i know you will eventually get everything within your control and prove yourself!! and i'm so proud of you!!

letih membuat dan menghabiskan sisa-sisa kerja orang lain.. diri sendiri yang susah hati.. poor you hannan.. i've not talked much to you since these few days right..? i didn't even greet you when you are awake and doing your sommersaults/jumping/kicking inside.. so sorry dear.. ummi's so mentally exhausted these few days.. although daddy's been a great support and lend his shoulder whenever i needed.. i couldn't just unleash everything on him right? i have to be strong for you too.. really hope all these work will end fast.. the only thing that will bring me joy at this point of time is going to the hospital and see you..