rainbow and flowers

Hello mid march 2015
I've told mr.husband that it's going to be a heavy 1st quarter of 2015.
Indeed it is.
Piles of files on my desks. When we thought it's ending suddenly so many other things came up.

As crazy as it sounds, I never complain about my workload. I never see them as burden. It's the responsibility and the trust that actually weigh me down.  All i need is just some understanding from people who have interest on those piling files that I'm just a human.A break from work is very limited. I spend less time with family.

And sometimes in fulfilling my role in the house I also need to constantly remind my family that I'm just a normal person. That sometimes i need some break too. It's very hard carrying so much expectations. That you must be have flawless skin, slim and fit body, stay pretty all the time being a mum of 2 who are now in their active phases while at the same time manage the house, breastfeed, play with kids, show your love to husband and extended family. this month brought me extra task of dealing with contractors and monitoring our reno budget.

Ooh..that brings me to our new house.I almost forget the excitement. We just moved to our dream house 4 nights ago. The babies particularly were so excited and happy with their room designed by Dada. Pink wallpaper pink dollhouse pink curtain pink pendant light..mmm..you get it. I only decided for the curtain lighting and wallpaper. Nope, didn't get "I love you Ummi!" all i heard was "I love you Daddy!" Ok you win Dada. I just need to think about the REST of the house. The wallpaper the aircond the ID the sofas the electrical items the furnitures and dining tables and chairs.. that with hiring an ID.

With our busy schedule, I think my line of communication with mr.husband sometimes break down. Sometimes he thought I'm too busy that I totally disregard him. Most of the times from the way he talks to me I think he's not in love with me anymore. Expectations were not properly managed.

I wonder how to make rainbow and flowers bloom again.

I'm imagining sakura at the feet of Mount Fuji and tulips in Holland.