Welcoming our precious.

Sunday,Sept 11

Woke up at 6.30am.solat.kejut hubby yg kepenatan dan mengantuk sbb tdo pkl 5 pagi entertaining his friends tgk game Man U lwn Bolton  but seeing his face tak sampai hati nk kejut byk kali. so I just watched him sleep.around 7.15am,turun bwh.mesin kain.today supposedly nk pergi jemputan rumah Pn Rosni at Shah Alam,but my Rembau family is coming so I decided to cook altho still feeling tired from yesterday.kemas dapur sikit2 n headed to the living area utk rehat sekejap before start cooking.

8 am,was on my knee to switch on the tv plug when a gush of water came out. seluar basah. confused. x rasa sakit. normal discharge or “the show”? but it was clear liquid. shud i concern or ignore? called mama, mama kata better pegi check takut air ketuban. then I called Prince Court, told them that I'm 35 wks preggy and I think my water broke. They asked to come immediately to the emergency unit. I explained to them that I was not sure whether it's really “the show” because I didn't feel any pain but they insisted for me to come.

So kejut hubby at 8.15 am. I said "Hubby, org rasa air dh pecah". Then he, half awake, asked "Siapa?" Hehe.Takkan air dia yg pecah kot? I explained to him that I've called PCMC and was asked to come immediately.Sian hubby mamai. Gosok gigi pun mata pejam. Tp mamai2 pun dia ingat nk angkat bag hosp,beg Hannan and car seat tanpa disuruh hehe.

All the way from home to PCMC I knew he was still mamai but in controlled condition :)

Sampai PCMC,hubby dropped me at the emergency entrance while he went to park the car at the basement. Masuk je pintu emergency tu immediately the guy at the counter asked:"Pn Nadzirah ye?"Terkejut. Rupanya they were all prepared for my arrival. Siap suruh duduk atas wheelchair lg.

Rasa segan, I told the guy "tp saya tak sakit" he said, "takpe puan,org bersalin ni mcm2.."

"Saya ingat check kt emergency je sbb saya x sure since x rasa sakit pape"

He said never mind,labor unit at level 6 will have me checked.And so we went.

Masuk bilik Dr Seri at level 6.Nurse gave me a blue colored hosp attire (with opening at the back) and asked me what was the sign. I said I suspected water broke. And she gave me maternity pad.After changing, keluar bilik air hubby's already there.muka hubby nmpk segar sikit after seeing me in the hosp attire.

Then nurse strapped a belt around my belly to check my baby's heartbeat. She asked me to cough and saw the water discharge - confirmed that it's "the show". After nurse confirmed hubby nmpk terkejut and risau.It was like a wake up call for him. and started calling our parents.Dr Seri was already on her way.

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Dr. Seri arrived pkl 10. Sempat berseloroh lagi "Aii x sabar betul baby you ni nak keluar..ye la mak ayah dh lama tggu ye.." and asked me what did I do yesterday.

Yesterday?

Pagi:beli brg kt alamanda.

then straight away went to rumah mak lang ida utk majlis tunang anak dia.

From there by ajak pegi Macy.

Balik macy solat terus start masak.

Pastu maghrib pegi fetch shah kt putrajaya.

After shah balik around 10pm tgk tv sekejap dgn by.

Mengantuk,by bwk naik bilik tidur atas. I slept while hubby waited for his friends for their game night.

Kesimpulannya-i had a hectic day.

My answer to Dr Seri on what did i do yesterday: “Jalan2 :)”

So Dr.Seri assessed my belly and confirmed kepala baby still kat atas.She instructed for operation right away since air dh keluar. No point of waiting any longer.Dia tanya what did I have this morning?

"Biskut raya coklat cip dan suku mug air neslo sahaja doc huhu".

Doc laughed at me and said "ok la tu.."

Few minutes later nurse gave me a painful injection to mature baby's lungs since baby premature.

10.30 am nurse came in mtk sign admission,consent and insurance form. Nurse also asked about my medical history and parents medical history.

Then I was sent to a waiting room. It's the checking stage before entering the OT. The nurses checked through all the forms and asked whether I'm wearing contact lens or jewelleries, have any allergies to any medicine.

Next the doc who's in charge for the anesthesia (bius) introduced himself to hubby and I. He explained that I will be given spinal injection which will make half of my body numb. He asked hubby and I whether we hv any questions.The questions were:

Is the spinal injection the same thing as epidural? - no,but similar.

Will the injection be painful? - He will give some sort of pre-spinal injection so that the spinal injection won't hurt.

How long will the injection takes effect? - it will last around 4 hours

He assured us that everything will be fine.

Hubby then was asked to change his attire in order to enter the OT and ushered away from my sight.

After all being cleared,I was pushed to the OT. Quite surprising as the OT has big windows with clear view of KLCC.

Before bius - doc explained that I will feel numb and rasa x selesa sikit but not pain.

Kena duduk upright sambil pegang bantal.

First injection-ok.mcm gigit semut.

2nd injection masuk-rasa kebas within few seconds.

I asked them where's hubby. Doc kata after bius ok baru hubby boleh masuk

Then I was asked to lie down. They put a piece of cloth in front of me to block my view.  Hubby came in and sat on my right. He tried to borak2 to distract me. Hubby kata doc already started the c-sect.

But few minutes later rasa pening. Nk muntah. Rasa sgt teruk. Doc said that's normal reaction. My bp dropped. Tried to vomit tp xde apa yg keluar. Siap murmured that I'm hungry. Then suddenly I felt striking pain on my right shoulder.Sakit sgt dn rasa x selesa.Doc said it's because the nerve was affected,but assured that the pain will go away once the c-sect is over.

At the same time I can feel that my belly mcm ditarik2 and ditekan2 but no pain. I guess at that time they were trying to push the baby's head from my upper belly since she was breech.I asked hubby to watch what's happening.I don't want him to miss the moment.I want him to immediately whisper azan to Hannan's ears. And he watched bravely.(So proud of him)

A moment later,I heard Hannan's cry.So loud.And I suddenly cried.Can't see her but was so overwhelmed by emotions-happy,sad,blessed.Tak tergambar.Teresak2 menangis.I can hear the doc said "Haaa..keluar2 je kencing kat aunty ye.." and " yes,the cord is short.." (which explains why she’s breech)

Then the nurse showed Hannan to me.She was still covered with a bit blood. I looked at her and smiled. But I didn't touch nor kiss her. Dunno why. I kept asking hubby to whisper the azan to her.I guess I was too amazed or tak bermaya masa tu while trying to cope with the pain on my right shoulder.Hubby took her and whispered azan.Then hubby told me that they are taking Hannan to the NICU for observation since she's premature.After she was taken away baru rasa menyesal that I didn't touch her.Sgt sedih.Cried again.

It was official.Time of birth 11.21 am,Sept 11.

My shoulder pain still persist.Sgt sakit that I asked hubby to press on it really hard.Hubby said doc tgh jahit,tggl sikit je lg nk hbs. Then he kissed me.I can feel his tears rolling down his cheek. He whispered "thank you..I don't think I'll be as strong and brave as u are..”

In pain,all I said was,"I'm now perfect right? I gave Hannan to you.." And he kissed me again..

Then Dr Seri menjengah."Ok,done. How r u feeling? Penat ye? I'll see you in the ward later ya?" I just smiled and said thank you to her.

Then hubby went out. The nurses cleaned me up,pushed me to the observation area,transferred me to another bed,put me on a drip to start help my contraction and took my bp every 5 minutes.Started feel cramp pain in the uterus, berdenyut2. Decided to sleep.Walau x nyenyak. Exhausted.

About 1 hour later nurse from level 6 came and pushed me out of the room. Bukak je pintu,I can hear mama,nenek,hubby and other family members..Felt a bit emotional but still,tired.I closed my eyes while tears rolling on my cheeks.

Arrived at my room, surrounded by family members.There's no restriction as to number of visitors or visiting hours.

Then hubby's friends nik,iwan and shef came.last to come was zahir and wife.

I asked hubby to go back dgn alasan suruh tanam uri cpt.Actually I feel pity for him satu hari x mandi,penat,sleepy, shocked and everything.At least he'll get to eat properly and rehat sekejap at home..

Still not able to hold Hannan at this point of time.Really, really sad but hope she's doin fine.Poor her all alone in NICU.

hang in there syg..I'll see u soon ya..both ummi and daddy love u..very much..tq for coming to our world..u r such a precious...