it has been

from 5th to 10th week of this second pregnancy..

I already started feeling numbness on my legs and hands
my body was really weak and my head was all dizzy and sometimes I can't even stand on both feet
visits to clinics indicated that my bp was low everytime

and I get breakouts not only on my face but at my back too
don't quite remember whether I had those during my 1st pregnancy

I don't like going out
even to shopping malls
I tried but I can only stand walking for 1 hour!!only!!
that's so not me!!
and I get so lazy even at wearing moisturiser, what more face powder
so you see this pale,tired, ugly looking pregnant lady walking around the house/office with her baby bump munching any kind of food she can find from the kitchen/pantry
I think I may have even scared some of my officemates with the "nude" look

and my food preference just change every single day
one day I really want to have ayam penyet wong solo
then fried salted egg squid
then pisang goreng
the next day cekodok
the next next day laksam
then nasi paprik
then olio spagheti

Then I craved for oats
I usually have them with milk
but then I discovered that I can't consume milk as it makes my condition even worse with more vomits and nausea
and the doctors advised me to get away from it too

hence at 12 weeks
the numbness, the out-of-breath-fast pumping heart machine-making me exhausted symptoms still persists
but thank God the dizziness and nauseas are getting toned down during morning (only) as I still get them in the evening

nope
it's not easy being pregnant
and I'm full of envy to those healthy laughing people enjoying nasi lemak and nescafe tarik during his period

and my deepest appreciation to hubs as he has been really patient and melayan my cravings and my whinings and crying and attention-seeking
hey it's not easy okay competing with lil princess Hannan