the one about our baby Suphie

I want to keep Daddy's post on Suphie here..it was actually posted when Suphie was few weeks old..thnk u daddy..

I can still remember the moment..

It was on the 6 Apr 2013 and i was in a bus in Houston, Texas going for my first meeting that day when Ummi told me that we need to cancel our umrah trip. [Insert cricket sound]

I was like..”Say what???!!”. We have paid the deposits to the travel agent and we are few weeks away from the trip!

That was my initial reaction....until she unveiled the beautiful reason behind it. 

The reason is...You.

When I heard that Ummi was already a few weeks pregnant, it came as a surprise to me....(good surprise I mean). 

We waited for almost 5 years to have your sister Hannan...and now, we’re going to welcome another one to the family?

To have your sister Hannan in our life is already a miracle. 

And to have you...it’s beyond miracle. It’s almost feel like i’m dreaming...I’m out of words...speechless. 

I took time to get myself composed again and stay calm. 

I was staring blank outside the bus window...and I realized that I totally forgot about a very simple concept of life...

“We are just human beings...there’s a creator and HE is the best of planners. He plans all these things meticulously."

My problem at that point of time was, the program in the States will only end in a few weeks time and I can’t wait to get myself back home to be with Ummi, Hannan...and YOU!!

Honestly, on my way to the States I cried in the plane because that was the first time I’m leaving Ummi and Hannan for a long period of time. 

And on my way back home, I cried again...but this time it’s the tears of joy to know that I'll be seeing an additional princess in the family.

FIRST VISIT - DR. ONNY [20 May 2013]

We tried to get Dr. Seri Suniza for her to have the honour to scan you for the first time. 

But her schedule is packed and she was only available in June 2013. 

So, the second option was for us to see Dr. Onny from SDMC in May first, then proceed to meet Dr. Seri in June. And on 20 May 2013...that was the first time we finally met....

It was a special moment for us because...we got to tell Hannan "Hey princess, that's your sister there on the screen. She's in Ummi's belly". 

And from that moment on, Hannan makes it a 'ritual' to kiss and hug Ummi, Daddy and...Ummi's belly before sleep. 

She loves you so much even when you were still in the womb.

11.12.13

Honestly, we didn't realize that your EDD will be on that beautiful date. 

The number was actually staring right in our face almost everytime we met Dr. Seri for check up. 

I was just too focus on you and Ummi's wellbeing and I totally forgot about the nitty gritty stuffs such as...the date. 

Until a friend of mine mentioned it a week before the EDD about the beautiful date.

And oh yeah...your sister Hannan was born on 11.9.11 (Sept 11) - nice number too ay? :p

So, on the 10 Dec 2013, we checked in to the hospital and be ready for 'the show'. I was very very anxious for your Ummi. More anxious than your Ummi I guess! 

"How am I going to handle myself in the labour room?" 

"What should I say to you? Salam? Hello? Hi?"  

And most importantly, I want Ummi and you to be safe all throughout the procedure and I prayed to Allah for a smooth procedure be it normal delivery or Caesarean.

After long hours of waiting and painstakingly enduring the contraction pain, (until Ummi decided to take the epidural - wise choice Hun. I will be the one who will be fainted in the labour room if you didn't take the epi. I can't bear watching you in pain) there you are my baby...another beautiful princess of ours has finally arrived. 

The doc placed you on top of Ummi and brought you to the cleaning table.Then..I realized that there was something wrong.

You had some difficulties in breathing and you can't really cry. I was panicked but still try to remain as calm as possible. 

We were informed that they have problems to suck out the secretion/mucus from your lungs.

The nurse allowed me to recite azan and qamat before she could continue sucking out the secretion from your lungs - but it couldn't be resolved. 

So they decided to put you under close observation in the nursery. 

You were then were brought to the Neonatal ICU (NICU) for further treatment of your breathing problems and jaundice.

Another day gone by...Me and Ummi were so worried. We can't still hold you in our arms but Dr. Anna Padma came to see us and informed us that you no longer have breathing problems. Phew...what a relief. They then brought you to stay with us in the room and sister Hannan was overjoyed! She couldn't stop kissing you and kept on looking for you everytime we went out of the room. 

"See Suphie...see Suphie" that is how much she loves you.

UMMI

What can I say about her? The list will be very very long. But in short...

She proves me wrong again and again 

- Honestly, I didn't have high hopes for her to deliver you normally. It was a rare case for a woman to deliver normally after a premature c-sect labour for the first one. But she was so persistent. She takes a good care of herself (and ultimately yourself too) during pregnancy as she was determined to deliver you normally. Being in the labour room with her, experiencing the labour process makes me realized that I am experiencing something miracle right in front of my eyes.

She's the reason for me to be here today

- Let's be honest, it's not a plain sailing journey to do what I'm doing now. 

To be working in one of the most hated organization and doing 'anti corruption' work, no one really likes you.  

Politicians/ministers/high level officials hate you (you are fighting corruption...it's obvious they hate you...duhhh) and losing friends is like a trending situation in my life now. 

Of course I do feel sad with these situations. 

There are friends that I would love to keep till jannah but once again, He has His own plans and I agree that my organization has it's flaws too. 

I would love to rekindle all the 'broken relationships' with His will.

But despite all that, I'm still being very persistent. I'm doing this because of Ummi and all of you. FAMILY is the thing for me. 

She was the one who encouraged me to sign up for this job anyway. 

So, I need to prove to the family that I will withstand any challenges come in the way.

She's an iron lady

- We don't have maids. I don't like to have a stranger staying together. 

During pregnancy, Ummi was juggling between office work, house chores and looking after herself. 

Tough...tough job for her - I have and will try my very best to ease all of those processes pre and post pregnancy.

YOUR SISTER - PRINCESS HANNAN

I do believe that God give you signs to name your child. 

In this case, God 'whispered' to us to name your sister as Hannan Nur Sufiyyah which literally means, pure compassion or Tender, Love and Care (TLC). That's what she is...

She loves you so much that she would kiss you 50 times a day in average.

She loves you so much that she would ask me to push away the nurse that made you cry when the nurse inserted a needle to take a blood sample for your jaundice.

She loves you so much that she would say "Daddy...carry Suphie!!" everytime she sees you cry whenever you're hungry.

She loves you so much that before bedtime, she would ask me to bring you upstairs ASAP whenever she hears you cry upstairs and run to the bed just to make sure you're ok.

She's a one 3B (Brilliant, Bright and Beautiful inside out) person I have ever 'met'. 

She would sit quietly on my lap everytime Azan is playing on the tv.

She will pray alongside me.

She can now almost complete a jigsaw puzzle on her own.

ABC and 123 is a piece of cake for her.

She can easily recognise shapes and colours...

and the list of her brilliantness goes on...

And I know she will be your best companion and both of you will be BFFs

SUPHIE ARIYANNA - 3 WEEKS OLD

As of today, you've passed the 3 weeks mark. Great job princess!

The cuteness of your face melts my heart everytime.

The bonding between you and Hannan is stronger.

Our love for you and Hannan is eternal.

Hope you had a good time so far...and we will try to ensure for you to be covered with TLC all throughout your life after this.

All of us including your Atoks, Neneks, Unties, Uncles love you so much and thankful to have you in our life.

Hannan, Suphie,

I seek protection for you in the perfect words of Allah from every devil and every beast and from every envious blameworthy eye - Al Bukhary

I love you all.

- Daddy

Hannan Nur Sufiyyah: 

11.09.11 [11:21 am]

Suphie Ariyanna: 

11.12.13 [11:38 am]

-Lokman Affandy Yahya-