One of the nights

It really breaks your heart when you can't just figure out what your baby wants. Tonight is one of it. I knew she was sleepy, but I also thought she was really hungry. So I was trying to breastfeed her -lying on the bed, sitting and even standing. But that makes her even more sad. She screamed.

Then ummi and daddy both tried play,dance, sing and everything with her.playing helps a bit but she still appeared sad and cried a lil bit here and there. Then we took turns trying to put her to sleep in her bed and in her car seat , turning on the aircond, putting all lights off. I was really confident that she's super hungry, so I kinda forced her with breastmilk. Didnt work. She cried her lungs out. And I scream in my heart too.

Finally, I put her in my arms, stood in front of the fan, swayed myself from side to side, cuddled her to sleep. 

And she slept almost immediately.

She.just.wanted.to.sleep.in.front.of.the.fan.?

I can imagine she meant "NO I DON'T WANT BREASTMILK!WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND!?"
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