Four

it has been 4 weeks since I gave birth to Suphie..and I can still remember every moment in the labor room..when hubs cheered me and whispered to me that I was doing a great job.. when nurse said that they can already see Suphie's hair while we're waiting for Dr Seri..the pushing part (although not feeling anything, I pushed with all my might)..the first time I see my baby Suphie.. the experience was so overwhelming..it kept playing in my mind over and over again..just as I remember the every details that happen on the day I gave birth to Hannan..

Been busy adapting our new routine with Suphie. Hv to admit that it's not easy and I hv high respect for those who handle 2 small kids (and more!) without any help. Seriously. Juggling between emotions and all.. I cried at first few days after the birth..feeling that I'm such a bad mom..and it took me few days to adjust our new life with Suphie at home. Lucky hubs took the rest of the month off to be with us. Having him around was fun and sure a big support and encouragement that I can do this and I'm not doing it alone

Anyway, Suphie was having rashes first few days at home and her face and chest still appear yellowish due to jaundice. She's also vomiting a LOT almost everyday and even restless some other times. We talked to Dr Padma on our concern but she suggested that it may be due to wind. Then since it kept on going we thought she might be colicky that hubs suggested I keep an eye on what I'm eating/drinking

My routine now:
bf at 6.30. Then sleep
Shower around 8.30
Hubs gets ready for work and bathe Hannan
Bring Suphie downstairs for her bath
10am continue bf. On off bf plus bfast plus play w Hannan plus cleaning up if Suphie vomits
12 Suphie sleeps. Continue play with Hannan watch tv and eat
1.30 Hannan sleeps
3pm change Suphie's diapers.bf. Then sleep
Wake up.Play w Hannan
6pm bathe Suphie then bf then Suphie sleeps
9.30pm Suphie wakes up and bf and she sleeps around 12am while Hannan sleeps around 11.30pm
Suphie wakes up again around 3.30am to 4am for milk

Tired? Yes.
And that goes to hubs too as he has to go all out entertaining lil princess
And at times I feel guilty to Hannan because I can't spend as much time as I used to for her
But she's so understanding and love her lil sister dearly
She won't ask me to play with her when she sees me attending to Suphie. She'll drag other people available bahaha
And she'll be the first to run to Suphie whenever she hears Suphie crying and insists ummi or daddy to carry Suphie She just can't bear hearing her sister cries
She kisses Suphie day night and between, always leaving her saliva on Suphie's face haha. I lost count already

So proud of her. And I hope Suphie will love her as much

I always pray that we will be the best parent for both of you