There's a reason why 2 people stay together: they give each other something nobody else can

As i said earlier, I want this blog to be a platform where people can find info so I want to share as much useful info that I can over here. We had experience with 3 paeds so far namely: 1. Dr. Anna Padma She was originally Suphie's paed during her birth, but ever since we got to know her, we chose to see her everytime for almost everything haha. Our kids love seeing her, talking to her and playing with so many toys in her room. All smiles and friendly all the time. Whenever we felt that our child need to be admitted, we wanted our child to be admitted under her care cos she is flexible and full of empathy as she understands parents' worries, concerns and hardships. She also made us realise that as parents, we need to be patient and remember that despite all the medications and treatments, any kind of illness will take its own course and most of them actually may not need strict medical intervention. https://www.princecourt.com/doctors/dr-anna-padmavathy-soosai/ 2. Dr. ...

I woke up one morning feeling terribly disturbed by a dream Performed solat Subuh which Hannan later joined me. After prayer, tears started to roll down my cheeks and all I wanted that time was a warm hug Hannan: What's wrong ummi? Me: I had a bad dream Hannan: What was it about? I couldn't say because the dream was about me being in a polygamy marriage. How can I explain to her? Although it was just a dream but the emotions were so intense. I had a perception before that all men who chose to have more than 1 wife is a really, really BAD guy.  Because I felt that those men are guided by their lustful desires and there is never a genuine shari'ah needs (like to help a widow and etc) in our modern days to actually validate a second marriage. But slowly, now, my worldview is changing. Not to say that I encourage polygamy but I was late to realise that Allah validates it because He knows humans are weak. Men are weak because they cannot contain their needs and desire...

I have been thinking about my emotions lately I think I have turned into a not so happy person. I don't remember when was the last time I felt really happy. Maybe it is the feminism thingy. The "I have the right to.." which brings me away from being someone who gives everything all the time to someone who demands. I don't know. I know I have my support system around me but truth is, they have their own expectations on me. Cos I am the mommy sigh. Khadijah ra must be the happiest woman.  a successful businesswoman,  had her own business. married the Prophet and had kids. She must be busier than ever but I don't remember reading any narration about her not being happy. How did she cope with that? did she have her own servant? was the Prophet sharing her burden?I remember the story about Fatimah ra who came to the Prophet telling him about how tired she was managing her household affairs. This issue had been there forever. And I really do not know how they ...

I've been longing to blog But over the past year, every time I wanted to write and publish, I would ask myself "why am I writing this?Why do I need to tell people this?" I was kinda having my own internal conflict plus there were so many stories last year about the pedophiles and the viral story about the chat groups that share pictures of small children among them that it made me scared So..why am i writing here again? Because..I recently made a self reflection and listed some of the reasons why I wanted to write at first: 1. Peer pressure (blogging was really popular back then and somebody suggested that I do it) 2. To earn extra income from Nuffnang (that somebody told me about this too) but hahahahahah clearly am not getting anything so far 3. I want to polish my writing skills (this is true) 4. I want to share. Somehow some people found my blog and email me personally how my writings /personal experience relate to them and some of them benefited from my r...

Dr. Seri puts the baby on my chest and I couldn't feel prouder. I just gave birth to a perfectly healthy and fine baby boy..without any pain relief I held his hands and touched his face while Dr. Seri stitching me down there God.. I can feel the stitches coming back and forth.. I don't feel like doing this again -__-

It's my 36 day of pantang today and here is the birth story for my kids' reference in the future (read: always listen to your mom ok giving birth was not easy) On the 12th April we went to see Dr. Seri for my 38-week check up, anticipating some certainty "Hi nadzirah, i was waiting for you since the day you informed me about the bleeding tapi takde dtg2 pun" "tulah doc..i thought losing the mucus plug would mean I'd be experiencing labor right away but no..there were contractions here and there but nothing happened" "hmm..baby tak nak  keluar lagi la tu!!" then she scanned and checked my belly for baby's position "he's actually getting down there..i would say that he is at 2/5 position. it could mean hours or few days away from labor..we don't know for sure.. so we'll see you next week for your 39-week check up..unless..I don't know what daddy is going to do to mommy tonight.." she chuckled "ohh..i t...

Officially 37 weeks today And can't sleep Had "the show" started on last sunday 36 weeks 5 days, during parent in law 36 yrs anniv celeb in Tanah Aina Cafe in Shah Alam went to pcmc for check up thereafter and was told no strong contractions yet although servix appeared soft already. So we headed back home. Ok i lied i made hubs drove to Mydotty's in TTDI because i was craving for their pastries  (1 eclair for RM10 fyi baby M) They were out of croissant donuts so i bought caramel eclairs.yumms. check out Mydotty's instagram then on monday morning i went to ofc to settle some pending matters accompanied by hubs and suphie At noon just before having dimsum lunch at IOI Marriott (it was actually mr.husband's craving) more blood show came out-obviously thicker this time- checked with dr.seri and she said need to wait for established regular contractions or signs of amniotic leakage And just to note here that only with this 3rd pregnancy that i realise th...